Like most mornings this year, I find myself alone in a Starbucks. I’m not even alone is some philosophical alone-in-a-crowded-room sort of way. Apparently, there aren’t too many people about at 6AM. Today is actually quite pleasant for the writer in me. Spring storms are in the Chicago area this morning, bringing thunder, lightening and rain. This is the best weather for reading and writing. It’s the kind of day where I long for a little reading nook, but this table will have to do.
There’s something about the soft roar of the sky and the sudden shock of light in the darkness that makes you feel alive during a thunderstorm. This is the natural music of our world.
Perhaps that natural feeling is what brings out the writer in me. Writing is my natural state, after all. Among the many goals I set for 2014, the most important is the completion of my novel’s first draft. So far, I have a beginning, middle and end planned out, three chapters written and concepts for the next two chapters waiting to be brought to life.
This story begs to be written. I started with the most basic plot and have been pleased to watch it grow into a sort of monster. In the morning, it drags me out of bed at 5AM. It whispers the most enticing tales in to my ear when I am driving, in the shower or almost asleep. As I work diligently with pen in paper to bring the monster’s essence into this world, it holds my attention with visions, leaving me to wonder if there is any way to transcribe this other world my eyes perceive onto paper.
The self-doubt can become crippling. With the pen shaking in my hand, I stare at the last written sentence. Everything in me wants to scribble away the horror, but I let it remain. I write on, knowing whatever comes from my hands is in its infancy. Soon, pen and paper will be forgotten, exchanged for a neatly typed and edited document.
Soon, so long as I never give in and keep that pen moving, I will have the pleasure of releasing my creation on the world.
Writing this sort of made me feel villainous, so I thought I’d share one of my favorite villain themes.