This post is a little late today because, when I saw this poem was next, I lost my mood. I was particularly stressed out yesterday, in the darkness so to speak, and the idea of a light at the end of all this just did not appeal to me.
This poem is very dramatic and one of the few my 14-year-old self decided to give a real title. Written on November 11th, 2004, it can seem a bit eccentric. I imagine I was trying to use language vague enough that the poem would fit anyone’s situation and specific enough to give each reader hope.
I was a high school freshman when I wrote the following poem.
Every path set before me
is dark and mysterious
A sense of evil hangs in the air
I can feel it’s hands on me
grabbing me, ripping me
Making me bleed
If nothing is done this dark will consume me
If nothing is done, this dark will consume you
Stand up, make your decision.
Walk among the evil
for no matter how dark the path
You will find eternal light
in the end
Is it just me, or does this poem make that light-filled end seem very far away? Maybe I wasn’t even talking about an end to any specific event. At that age, I was consumed with the Catholic dogma and ate up any jargon about suffering being worth while because of the promise of eternal life.
I’ve come to realize no merciful God would create us to suffer, but that’s a blog for another day. More than the ending result of struggle in this poem, I think the most impactful lines are ‘stand up, make your decision. Walk among the evil.’ No matter what a person is suffering from, no matter the source of darkness in their life, they should stand up and fight.
The challenge of a fight is that it’s hard and can force a person to endure long-suffering until they win. In comparison, giving in, laying down and letting life assault you ca n be rather easy. Painful, yes, but it also requires little effort.
There are many situations in which people might just let life walk all over them. Consider any of the many preventable health issues Americans suffer from. We all know the drill. Eat more fruits and vegetables. Avoid processed foods and keep a steady amount of fitness in your life. It’s not really too hard to do, depending on your income level, but how many of us bother?
Stand up and walk among your evil. It’s a thought that urges people to hold their head high even as the darkness assaults them. This poem really shows off my idea that’s it’s better to fight and die than live life on y our knees. The final hope, in the end is the peace of eternal light, which may mean different things to different people.
What darkness are you fighting in your life? Does the idea of hope ever frustrate you when in the thick of your fight? What do you think the difference is between those who choose to fight and those who don’t?