The Zachery Saga has finally come to an end, meaning today’s post is going to be a bit different. I really want to stick to the normal flow of my blog and question society, but those questions just aren’t coming to me. What’s running through my head tonight is that book I am writing, the draft I want to finish by the end of the year and how long it’s been since I’ve had the time to really work on it.
I’ve filled out a substantial amount of pages in my notebook and have six chapters currently written (for the rough draft). For the most part, I know where the story will go and I’m doubting myself every step of the way.
This first book is the hardest. I don’t expect it to be my greatest creation and, as I write it, I come up with new ideas that sound far better to me. I have a special notebook set aside to collect all the ideas that pop into my head, but I don’t want to work on them. I am going to finish this first book even if it’s the worst thing ever written. How many people say they’ll write a book someday and never do? Finishing this book, I will be one step ahead of them. Finishing this book, I will know I can write that much. The next one will then be a million times better (and will hopefully be written a million times faster).
Maybe I’m selling myself short and all the things I think are cheesy or uninteresting will turn out to be loved by my readers. It happens at ChapterTK all the time. I don’t know if this is a trait of my writing style, or the blogging world, but when I write a post that I think is crap, everyone loves it. I almost didn’t publish some of my most read posts because I didn’t think my writing was that great. On the flip side, some of the posts I’ve poured my heart and soul into have been all but ignored. Clearly I am not a good judge of my own writing.
This year has been a great learning experience and I’ve nearly figured out my perfect writing process. My life became scrambled when I got laid off, but now things are stabilizing. It’s time to get back to writing. The fact this book remains unfinished haunts me. While my goal is to finish this draft by the end of the year, I’d really prefer to finish it before November. Then, for NaNoWriMo, I’ll type out the draft on a computer. If I stay on track, maybe I’ll be able to call it finished half way through 2015.
The question on everyone’s mind is what this book is about. I’m playing with a lot of ideas and, since the first draft isn’t complete yet, any summary I give is subject to change. Instead of spending the next half hour figuring out the perfect way to describe the story, I’ll give you this to chew on.
The working title of this first book is The Wrath of the Goddess. This title is based on myth that governs how the main character’s race/nationality is treated. That myth has a lot to do with the flow of events in the book, so I thought it would make a good title for now. I have no less than four other title ideas, so who knows what this thing will be called when I pronounce it done.
Do all writers go through these struggles? How many bloggers out there think they’ve written something terrible only to find the blogiverse loves what they had to say? How many others feel they’ve written the greatest blog known to man, only to find it largely ignored? I know writers go through title struggles. Richelle Mead once shared the list of titles she considered for her first young adult series. She had more than 25 title ideas in that list.
More importantly, how the hell do book writers get that first book out there. Between the full-time job, friends rightfully demanding my attention, grocery shopping and cleaning my apartment (which doesn’t happen anywhere near as often as it should) it feels like there is just no time.
I will make time though. This book is going to get written and then…. I don’t know. Can I post a free or freeish PDF of the book on my blog while actively seeking publication?
Have you ever written a book before? How did you find the time to get it done? Would any of you dear readers be interested in reading something written by TK? Should I use an alias or my real name?