Category Archives: Struggles and Triumph

What Should you do when Opportunity Knocks?

Less than a year ago, I was laid off from what had turned into a dead end job. I once thought I would help create a whole department for the company, but the funding and attention wasn’t there. Eventually, the funding wasn’t even there for me. I found a new job in less than a year and again, I had the same dreams. Finally, here was a place in which I could grow a whole marketing team. Unfortunately, this job came with its own instability. Unlike the previous position, it directly threatened me and no one else. Loving the job, not wanting to leave, I put my name out there just in case. Then, opportunity came knocking.

I have never been one to refuse an opportunity. Always, I have embraced the idea that chasing dreams is the best way to live. Knowing what makes you happy, what you want and then going for those things is always best. So, when my name snagged an opportunity, an opportunity that came with co-workers I already knew, a significantly higher salary, a shorter commute, greater control over my projects, the absence of toxic people AND the distant hope that I could help build a marketing team, how could I say no?

By the time you read this, I will be employed by that opportunity. A part of me wonders what my old coworkers think. Was it for the money? Was it loyalty? Was something too strict or someone too mean?

The truth is none of those things. The truth is that I came upon an opportunity I couldn’t refuse, that offered me the chance to spread my wings further and advance in my career. You always take a chance when changing jobs, but I felt this was a chance I had to take. In a way, the option to stay included larger risks. Would my intuition be right and the instability land me where I was a year ago? Would my salary remain the same even as the department grew? Would traffic get worse and worse on the highway? Would I ever be able to do anything without fighting a battle?

I once heard millennials are less loyal than before. They say my generation will have five different careers in their lifetime – not just jobs, whole careers! The days where a person worked at a company for decades, until the day they retire, are gone. Until this very moment, I thought myself the opposite. I would love to work at the same company for decades. That’s still true, but I also know what I want. I answer opportunity with a courageous “yes!” I do all this, in the hopes that I will find that job I can settle into. And by settle, I mean the job where I can grow my career, taking me to greater and greater heights.

You could say I’ve always been this ambitious. I’ve worried I’m too ambitious and then quickly been told never to lose this quality. Indeed, my ambition is what allows me to chase down every crazy idea that comes into my head and to try new things. Is it even possible to be too ambitious?

I’m sure Icarus knows the answer to that question all too well.

I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t a little afraid of melting my wings, yet, I’ve felt this way about every change in life. In the end, I say you should always go for every opportunity that knocks so long as it is truly an opportunity. Make sure everything feels right, consider where you are and where an alleged opportunity will take you. If all signs say go, grab the bull by the horns! Life waits for no one and dreams are only achieved when you’re willing to take a chance.

Have you ever taken an opportunity despite fears or worries? How did that work out for you? When it comes to your career, what would you do if another company offered to hire you in a position with more responsibility and with a higher salary? Would you take the chance?


The Burden of Positivity in Depression

I’m starting to wonder what happened to me on March 3rd, 2005. This time last week, I published Into the Darkness, a poem I interpreted with strength as it seemed to describe overcoming a surrounding darkness. For the first time ever, I have turned the page to find a poem written on the same day. In fact, it seems this poem is a sort of answer to the one published last week. Continue reading The Burden of Positivity in Depression

Finding Strength Knowing No One Will Save You

More often than not, I always approach my old poetry with an air of depression. I was quite sad when I wrote them, after all. Part of me is amazed with just how sad some of these are considering how much harder middle school was on me. I think it has something to do with being beyond survival. My depressions, hate and fear has a purpose in middle school. They were dark feelings, but they were the only way I made it through the day. Now, finally in a place where I had less to fight, what helped me survive turned on me. Continue reading Finding Strength Knowing No One Will Save You

The Confusion of Self-Fulfilling Prophecies

Teenagers routinely express this idea that no one understands. I was no different when I was 14. Sometimes I think that statement is a little funny, because I rarely told anyone how I felt. How can someone know how you feel if you don’t tell them? At the same time, I distinctly remember my problems and struggles being taken lightly. It didn’t happen all the time, but it happened enough for me to close up. So here I was, a self-fulfilling prophecy, crying that no one understood me even though I told no one anything to help them understand. Continue reading The Confusion of Self-Fulfilling Prophecies

Ramblings of a Tortured Soul

Today’s poem is kind of odd in that it’s not a poem. I know many of these seem to be rambles, but this really is one. This is one of those pages I turn and see the real darkness I struggled with as a child. Sometimes, I feel guilty for saying I suffered depression. There are so many in the world who suffer more than I ever have. Yet, I felt this gloomy pressure penetrate my every thought. The following words were written in the middle of that dark place. Continue reading Ramblings of a Tortured Soul